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08 January 2016 @ 09:30 am
Dreams, songs and ideas  
Things are going well here. The budgies are growing. Having some issues with splayed legs mostly on the lacewing. So I made a little thing for her feet. She hated it. Poor thing. Today is day 3 of wearing it but hope to take it off in 5 days and her feet should be better. There's a depression in the nest that's not good and messes up the feet. I took it out and added a bunch of shavings. It's been hard keeping up with the daily photo. I already lost count.

I had my first Fear dream yesterday. Check this out.
I was having a boring mundane dream. Buying wrapping paper at a store with some friends. Then I was in this museum with humans and robots and there was a crazy mastermind wanting to enslave the robots. It was great but for some reason he bored me and I went outside. Somehow now I was standing in front of a Christmas store again and I realized I was dreaming. I got worried because once you become lucid that's a strong chance you'll wake up. I almost did. The world suddenly felt less real and the whole thing looked like it had phased through a filter. Like the resolution had changed for the worst. I waited then asked myself "Am I still dreaming or is this real." I realized I hadn't woke up and got excited and decided to test my powers again. My biggest complaint was that I wasn't in 3rd person like I usually am. I was in 1st so I couldn't see myself. I held out my left hand and it was normal. Then I though, "I'm going to be Fear. Now when I bring my hand back out it better be purple!" So I lifted my hand again and it was! Though it wasn't quite the right shade I go, "I'll take it." I got extremely happy and excited at that point and just started running off down the sidewalk of this town with my hands up and laughing. I love how I can still think in dreams and I go, "Oh gosh I better make sure I didn't change back. Look down and see if you're wearing a black and white shirt." So I looked down at myself and yes there was that sweater of his. YAY!! I looked down and had the right pants and shoes too and I was shaped properly. Now the dream switched to 3rd finally and I could see myself as Fear. "I must do another test!" I said. So flicked my hands to the sides and shot out thin purple electricity. I could hear the little thunderclap. They weren't very powerful and didn't go very far. Six feet perhaps no matter what I did but I was thrilled. I was so happy I just started laughing and kept on running. I didn't see anyone but I'm sure I was scaring everyone around me. Switched back to first person and I was running so fast I took off and started flying. I could see my molecular purple hands come out in front of me from time to time. I was still testing that I was in control. I loved how it felt to fly. I saw a tree near a building and aimed for it. I dove down and I was still in control. I was so happy. But when I start flying is when I tend to lose control of a lucid dream because I get so happy and excited the dream comes in and takes me away so I don't know what happened after that. No more Fear I'm sure. So I wish that dream had been all in 3rd and that I'd stayed in control loner and been Fear more. I've been wanting to dream about being him since Sept. About time.

I've got some lovely new art to share too.

This one is called Eternal Mind and I think it turned out so beautiful. He's so happy creating all this lovely space stuff around him. Inspired by the song of the same name.

Chris found me this other awesome song by Power Theory. I don't know anything about this band other than the one song that I loved. Driven by Fear.
The song starts at 1:13 The lyrics fit Fear perfectly as to what his powers are. He feeds on fears big or small. People on DA think he only goes for your worst fears. No not always. My poor character is actually very misunderstood. The only misunderstanding I wanted for him was for people to think he's evil. Sometimes he is, but not always. He's very complex and unpredictable.

Well our 20th anniversary is coming up Feb 4th. I'd love to go to the keys but there may not be enough money or time. I'm not sure how to plan a trip there. I really want to do something special ON that day. I just don't think it will work out. I also don't know if Mike can watch our birds on such short notice too.

Well back to brain storming my stories. One theme I love exploring is lost memories. I'd love to do this with Fear but I'm not getting much and think for him it would be too easy to resolve his dilemma. I think everyone in the brain would be looking for him. I could have him get lost in an obscure part that has a small town that doesn't get much news. They would not know who he was. He'd still have his powers so he'd be able to see others' fears still. That might disturb him since he doesn't know who he is. But I also thought they could show him his memory orbs which might help him remember or at least believe what they tell him. And I have no set plot so I'm not sure if this could even work though I'd like it to. I just know it starts with him falling. Why is he falling? I don't know. How is he falling? I don't know. Perhaps he fell out of a plane or lost his wings. I just know he conjures a tornado from someone walking near by to try to save himself. But since he is afraid himself his powers aren't very strong. The tornado slows his fall but he lands hard through some bare trees and is out when these people find him. They see him falling. And that's all I have.
actipton80actipton80 on January 8th, 2016 05:11 pm (UTC)
I finally watched Inside out a couple nights ago. I got it from Red Box.

I looked at the most recent picture of the older baby, and I'm pretty sure I see what will become normal feathers so he's a boy. I also don't see any sign of yellow, so he will be skyblue. I think he's split to recessive pied too since I saw a patch of white quills on the back of his head, and sometimes budgies who are split to recessive pied get a little pied patch there.
Desthagirion on January 8th, 2016 07:31 pm (UTC)
So what did you think?

Yes he has a patch on his head. His nose is turning pink so I was suspecting a boy. Yay a boy and a girl. I'm glad he's split to recessive pied.
actipton80actipton80 on January 8th, 2016 08:22 pm (UTC)
I liked it. I had seen way too many clips on YouTube though. I could relate to a lot of it since I moved a lot as a kid.

He's a cutie too. I want to cuddle him when I visit.
Desthagirion on January 8th, 2016 08:39 pm (UTC)
Who was your fave and least fave?

You'll definitely get to play with them. I'm so looking forward to your visit.
actipton80actipton80 on January 9th, 2016 01:56 pm (UTC)
I don't know who my favorite is, but Joy became annoying to me pretty fast.
Desthagirion on January 9th, 2016 09:40 pm (UTC)
Well I hate Sadness and you know my two faves already. I didn't like Bing Bong either.
actipton80actipton80 on January 10th, 2016 12:19 am (UTC)
I liked Sadness when she wasn't being weepy, but not when she was. I don't think Disgust got enough screen time because she had some of the best lines in the movie. Anger had some good lines too. I didn't hate any of them, I just think Joy and Bing Bong were annoying.
Desthagirion on January 10th, 2016 12:42 am (UTC)
What do you think of Riley's Fear compared to Scary Fear?
actipton80actipton80 on January 10th, 2016 04:19 pm (UTC)
I was pretty indifferent to Riley's Fear. I neither liked him nor hated him, and he was just the butt monkey of the movie to me. I never really liked Scary Fear either because he comes across as a creepy jerk in scary mode. I haven't seen enough of him in normal mode to gauge him. And I miss George, Leeanix, Ophidius, and the rest. And Bullet.
Desthagirion on January 11th, 2016 02:25 pm (UTC)
That's the thing about Scary Fear. He looks creepy and scary but is not always out to scare others. The scene of him at the cliffs I think is a good example of this and my latest drawing of him happily playing with the cosmos. I assure you he is not a jerk. He might only look like one.
I miss them too. They are not forgotten. I'm just loving my new boy and how well received he has been. I'm starting to not like Riley's Fear for being so out of control. I love those few moments he was calm.

Also though he's loved there's a lot of misunderstanding going around with him. So I wrote this up. Perhaps it will help you understand him some.


Edited at 2016-01-11 02:49 pm (UTC)
kabuldur: Asterkabuldur on January 9th, 2016 11:20 am (UTC)
On the subject of budgies, I thought I'd let you know that Lake Ayre is filling up (slowly) and the budgies are breeding!

Love that pic of Fear.

What a cool dream you had. I would have trouble remembering a dream where I fell back asleep again.

Happy upcoming anniversary. That's a real milestone!

Hmmm...I have no suggestions about your plot but it is sounding interesting.
Desthagirion on January 9th, 2016 09:41 pm (UTC)
Oh wow that's great. I'd love to see that.
Thanks. I'm very happy with how he turned out this time.
I loved this dream. Luckily I think it was the last dream of the night so I woke up for the day after it.
Thanks. I do want to do something for it.
I'm glad you like it. But it may be something that won't go anywhere.