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09 May 2012 @ 09:55 am
Good Bye Protist  
My budgie girl Protist died today. We have been expecting this for a while now. I knew she was getting old. I don't know how old she was. I need to find the photos I took of her playing with the Fairy Tail toys since she was less than a year in those and they may have the year stamped on the back. That would narrow things down. I just don't know where those pics are. I'm guessing she was 7 or 8. I noticed that only Peep was out on the perch then I saw her tail sticking out from behind the water bowl. She had wedged herself in there. I notice that when budgies are ready to die they like to find a quiet dark alone place to expire on.
EDIT: Just from going through my old posts looks like she was a 2005 baby. That means she was 7 years old. I didn't have LJ until late 2004, but I don't think she goes back that far. Seven is good but would have been nice to have been 8.

Old budgie girl

Took this one on April 28. These are the last pics I took of her. Like with Gaus you can tell she's tired of life. He got this way when he was real old too. I'm glad I took these pics. Wish I had taken more videos. I don't have any real budgie pets anymore. Peep isn't very tame because he's flighted. I'd like to have another budgie but I don't know if I will. As far as a pet goes. I don't have the room or the time at the moment. I'll still keep budgies as aviary birds and I definitely need to keep the Phage line going. Protist was Phage's first born so she was the princess. I kept her because of that. She was special and sold her siblings. Sad to think all those babies are most likely gone by now too. I'm worried because I need Tesla and Blu to breed but because they are first time birds they have no idea what to do and this time shoving them into the box has not worked.

As for what I feel I don't know. I felt some sadness and disapointment holding her little body. But I knew it was coming and have been expecting this. I haven't cried yet if I'm even capable. I do feel my throat's a little hard like it gets when I'm upset. But she led a long happy healthy life. That's probably helping me a lot. Sadly budgies don't live forever. It just bothers me that for the last few deaths of birds I've been close to I haven't cried. I don't think I've cried since my pigeon girl Punkin. I definitely cried a lot in 2007 for Phage but that wonderful little budgie had really rooted himself into my heart and I still mention his name for no reason and am trying to keep his legacy going. Last week I think I got my closure. I took Protist out of the cage and brought her into the bathroom with no distractions. I had a chat with here. I had one with Phage too. I told her how she was special and wanted her to know I loved her, that she was the princess and my favorite female budgie and she's been awesome. Because there wasn't a strong bond with us like with Phage I don't think she understood everything but I told her. When I had this conversation with Phage I KNEW he understood every word.

Two older videos to show her. I like this one because she bit me. I didn't lead on, but she got me good. She bit me really hard and it hurt a lot. It's funny. I've always liked fisty birds.

In this next one I get bit again. But it's nice to see her because she still used to fly and would come out and be active. I mentioned somewhere when she stopped doing that and in the last month because of the constant molt she was in she couldn't even fly at all.

I already miss my budgie girl.
Ok I need to get back to work.
Current Mood: sadsad
The Silver Wolf of Darkness: AvistA Sadsilvolf on May 9th, 2012 03:56 pm (UTC)
It's always sad when we lose a beloved pet. But you have photos and videos of her to remember her by!
Des: Owen Sadthagirion on May 9th, 2012 04:01 pm (UTC)
Thanks. Yeah, I'm glad I have more photos and stuff of her. I regret that with Phage.
earthmother45earthmother45 on May 9th, 2012 08:39 pm (UTC)
Oh, Des, I'm sorry to hear the sad news of your budgie girl Protist dying. The videos are so sweet. In the first one, the little baby chicks are so cute. They look pink, but you say they will be yellow. Do you still have all three of them. If so, what are their names?

I've known of other animals who also go to a private place when they know it's time.

Thanks for posting the videos of your sweet girl.
Des: Owen Helmetthagirion on May 9th, 2012 08:52 pm (UTC)
Thanks. Their skin is pink, but their little feathers are light yellow. They don't have names since they're aviary birds, but they're very fun to watch as they've got those friendly genes. Yep I still have them and I need to breed them too for I think the 3rd generation. I'll have to post pics to show how they've become light yellow like butter.

Yeah, I've noticed budgies like to find a dark quiet place alone.

I'm glad to share. I like that people know how wonderful she was.
earthmother45earthmother45 on May 10th, 2012 12:53 am (UTC)
What do you mean by aviary birds? How come you don't name those? How many birds do you have altogether? I know you have a macaw and a cockatiel also and the doves and pigeons.

Yes, I love your videos. I remember the first time I saw one of your bird videos and how gentle and caring you were with them . . . your voice and your hands.
Des: Budgiesthagirion on May 10th, 2012 01:08 am (UTC)
They are in an aviary on the patio. Here's a pic from the kitchen window you can kinda see it.

My pretty nepenthes kitchen window 2

The white cage is full of budgies. I think there are 15 budgies in there and it goes almost to the ground. There are also 15 cockatiels and two doves in the bigger silver cage behind that. I have so many budgies (actually much less than I used to since I stopped breeding for selling though I'm considering it again at times) I don't name them unless they are going to be house pets. Outside I have a pigeon loft I think you have seen with about 20 pigeons and the coop for my 8 chickens.

Thanks. I'm glad you liked them.
earthmother45earthmother45 on May 10th, 2012 01:26 am (UTC)
Wow! I have seen these cages before in your pictures, but never knew just how many you have! Wow! That's over 30 little birds and I can see why you don't name them.

Yes, I remember seeing your pigeon lofts outside, but didn't know how many of those you had. And the chickens, too. A good part of each day must be spent just caring for them.
Des: Gourdsthagirion on May 10th, 2012 01:47 am (UTC)
Yeah, when Chris isn't home and I'm having a slow day it can take me two hours to feed them all. On a slow day that is. Usually it's one. I should record my morning reutine sometime, which also includes the growing myriad of plants I must tend to too. Since I was a child I have always had a strong urge to surround myself with life.
Stephanielebongirl on May 10th, 2012 04:35 am (UTC)
rest in peace, pretty girl :(
Des: Owen Sadthagirion on May 10th, 2012 12:14 pm (UTC)
suzidragonlady: Suzi's Eye-Consuzidragonlady on May 10th, 2012 06:15 am (UTC)
I'm very sorry. She was a real pretty and nice bird.
That reminds me on my last bird that I had many years ago. His name was just Birdy and he died at the age of 9 just out of a sudden. He was happy and singing and everything looked normal like always then we left the house to do some shopping and when we came home again he was dead. I still don't know what he had. :(

I hope you will feel better soon.
Des: Cope Sadthagirion on May 10th, 2012 12:15 pm (UTC)
Yeah she was a wonderful pet. Nine years is excellent. It was just time for him to go. I don't think he was sick, just really old.
kabuldurkabuldur on May 10th, 2012 11:19 am (UTC)
I'm sorry you lost Protist. She was a pretty budgie. And a good mother! That is so good that you recognised that she was getting old and had that talk with her. I think that will help. Rest in peace, little budgie girl.
Des: Cope Sadthagirion on May 10th, 2012 12:16 pm (UTC)
Thanks. She was a great little pet. Special too because females are naturally not as friendly.
Cheezey: Sadcheezey on May 10th, 2012 01:16 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry for your loss. It's hard to lose a favorite pet. :(
Des: Cope Sadthagirion on May 10th, 2012 01:23 pm (UTC)
Thanks. She was a special budgie.
actipton80actipton80 on May 10th, 2012 06:11 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry. It's so sad that you lost such a sweet little budgie girl. I had just gone back and watched the second Protist video you posted here a couple days ago. This past winter when Rudy lost all that weight and I thought he was going to die, I told him he was my special boy every day. I still tell him that every day.
Des: Cope Sadthagirion on May 10th, 2012 07:47 pm (UTC)
Thanks. I miss her. I'm going to have to make a tribute video for her. At least I have actual videos so I'll mix that with some old photos. That's good you tell him. I'm sure he knows. Your bond with him is stronger.
Michi: Sad-Cross_x_blackroses_x on May 21st, 2012 06:07 am (UTC)
Oh no...I'm late, but I'm so sorry. Poor old Protist. I surely recall that name. I know exactly how it feels to lose creatures who have bonded with you strongly.

It's actually been rather depressing lately, because all of the dogs that my friends and I had throughout our pre-college school years have passed on. Last week my very old catfish, Melvin, died too...the last inhabitant of the "big tank" we've had since I was a first- or second-grader. He was a good fish. Always pretty flighty and high-strung and skittish, given to freaking out and slamming himself around into the glass occasionally...but still a very nice and handsome/finsome fish. (Not like my betta, Karl, though. Karl's the friendliest, most personable fish I've ever known. The other day I accidentally poked him in the face as he was swimming over all excitedly, and he pretty much just seemed to go, "Oy, watch it!") So anyways, now we've drained out the water and have to soak all of the algae-coated pieces to see whether anything can be salvaged. I determined not to add any new fish until the big tank was completely cleaned out, and I'm not even sure I want to use it again for fish. The vertical orientation makes it a bitch to clean, & takes away surface area as well as some swimming space for the lower-level swimmers I like so much...plus the glue strips holding the walls together seem to be hopelessly algae-caked and fraying in some spots. I dunno. Maybe I'll save it in the shed and turn it into a terrarium someday. I have some different ideas for my future aquariums.
Des: Cope Sadthagirion on June 12th, 2012 06:57 pm (UTC)
I just now found your comment. Sorry for the late reply. Thank you. I still miss her and think about her.
I know fish can be cool pets too. I had a wonderful goldfish named Moby that was very interactive.
Michi: FN-bubbles gurgle gill dory_x_blackroses_x on June 26th, 2012 06:19 am (UTC)
It's all right! I'm late too...been having a lot of technical difficulties and sparking power supply cords and whatnot...so all in all, I didn't really get to read my e-mail 'til today. Indeed...fishes have actually always been my favorite animals after dogs. :) I think my Karl would like it if I could safely carry him around and take him places, lol.